Feeling Really Happy

While there is a part of me that is always going to be a bit sad and I might not get over Rose, but I think I'm finally getting to a good place with supportive people.  I also have been achieving goals that I didn't think possible.  I just wanted to share some of the good things that have been happening.

I met a nice guy yesterday for the first time.  I don't know if I'm attracted to him,but it's nice to have a friend that likes the same things that I do.  We might go used book shopping in Bethel next time we meet up.  He paid for a nice dinner for me and we then went for a walk.  He's a bit older than me and is going through a nasty divorce, but those things happen.  I think it's just nice to meet someone new.  Maybe he and I will meet up again.

I also got my review today.  It was good for the most part.  I just need to be better at keeping calm during problem solving, which is something that I realized and I'm working on it.  I'm not the best employee in the world, but this job is willing to accommodate me and is helping me to succeed. They do want me to take on more responsibility, which is great.  They said that I am the rock in my pharmacy and know that if I'm working things will run smoothly.  I don't know everything and I learn every day, which probably why I really enjoy my job. 

I did apply for a field trainer position, but I haven't heard anything yet.  If I don't get it, I'm glad that I tried anyway and can continue on the journey of becoming a lead technician.  While my company got ranked among the 12 worst companies to work for (the article mentioned nothing about working for evil bank), I have more benefits than I knew about.  I now have the option to buy stock, which is something I'm looking into.  It's investing in a safer way because the stock price is on the intranet every day and I'm in a fitness challenge, which if I complete it I get $40 in my account to use on whatever I want.  That is some incentive.

I'm also working on drawing.  I just completed two today.  I'm not very good, but I enjoy them.  I'm much better at floral photography, which is what I do in the spring.  For drawing, I mostly draw sea animals like sharks and other fish.  It's very relaxing to just create something.  I'm including one of my flowers and a drawing.

White Irises-Ballard Park

Bamboo Shark

Overall, I'm doing well.  I just wish I got to see my friends more because I am lonely a lot of the time.  That is the one area of my life that needs a bit more attention.

More Challenges

My life is just full of challenges right now.  Money challenges, weight challenges, food, space and even my hair.  On the flip side I have some positive challenges as well like my job and a fitness challenge starting in August.

I'll start with the positive challenges.  At work I applied for a promotion to field trainer.  It never hurts to apply.  If I don't get it then, I will continue working on getting my national certification and becoming a lead technician.  It's just nice to know that I have a shot at both without being under a microscope.  I am also signing up for a fitness challenge, which is also through work.  If I complete it, I get 4000 points put into my account, which I can redeem for gift cards or merchandise.  Plus it's a way to motivate me to get more active and maybe lose a little weight.

A lot of my other challenges are based on my weight.  I am still at 236 pounds, which is very heavy for me.  Part of the the weight is from stress and a poor diet.  I'm learning how to eat better especially on a budget.  The other major thing is my lack of energy and exercise.  Now that I have the methylfolate, (I can't break down folic acid into methylfolate, so I take it separately), I am starting to get more energy so I can exercise.  I know that I lost a lot of weight in the UK because I walked everywhere.  I think now that I live in a town with sidewalks, I should start walking to places. 

The other issue is my hair.  I have hard water and it's really affecting my hair.  My hair gets more dry and brittle because of the water.  I'm not sure if it's the shampoo or build up or what, but it's just making me feel flat and blah.  I do think that I will dye it back to a darker brown, maybe my natural hair will make things better.  Anyone have any suggestions?

Overall though I am feeling better.  I have a great motivator in Krystina and some of my work buddies.  I do miss hanging out with people.  That is the constant challenge: being social. 

Activity: made scrambled eggs and home fries after a surprise 11 hour shift.