I would give up forever to just hold his hand. I don't need a lover, I just need a really good friend to just talk to everyday. Most of my day consists of working on myself and talking to Geof and Sarah because I don't have very many people to talk to about everything like I did with him. I wish I knew what was going on with him aside from his paranoia getting the better of him.
As for Pile of Good Things, I'm still in the research phase. I think I rushed things a bit in terms of fundraising because I don't really have any programs set up yet. I have a lot of research and classes left to do before I even recruit a board of directors. I'm glad that I did the crowd funding and I can always come up with more campaigns through them.
I'd give up the world for a kind word from him or a word of encouragement like he used to. I'm doing a lot better, but I still have a lot of self-doubt when it comes to PoGT. I know that I have to help in some way because employers are putting their employees mental health at risk and it's unnecessary. There are ways to cut costs without harming employees. I just have to come up with ways to show it. I also want to teach employers about mental illness so that their employees can get help before it gets worse. I just need someone to tell me that I don't suck. Someone that completely matters to me. Worst of all, is that I fear I will never trust anyone that much again.
Time will tell, but I've been hurt. True real love lasts forever and it doesn't matter who it is to. I just want this:
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