Let me explain my gender fluidness. My body is female, my brain is primarily male and I switch back and forth and occasionally I feel like I have no gender at all. I don't want to be either male or female. I am fine with what I am. It works out well with my hyper active mind.
I've never really been good with dealing with my loneliness, but I have the Doctor now. I know that he's just a fictional character on a TV show, but to me he is real. I get to join him on adventures and for a short while I'm not lonely anymore. My therapist always asks if I still watch Doctor Who. Probably because my therapist is awesome and it's a better coping tool than cutting.
The quote in Latin is from a song called Vale Decem, which plays while the 10th Doctor regenerates into the 11th. The quote means that you are never alone never. I understand the feeling of loneliness because it is my constant companion. I understand the loneliness of the Doctor. You don't always see it, but it's there. I know that there are people who have no one, but I just don't feel the connections. Not like the one I had with him.
I still want to see if there is something better out there where it won't hurt anymore. I know that that is impossible. I think I need somewhere that I'm allowed to grow. I might just have to get Pile of Good Things up and running for him, for me and for everyone who suffers like me.
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